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Monday, December 28, 2009Title: Xmas edition! Welcome to the Xmas season edition of stuff!!! Now as usual, I will break the recent happenings into GOOD, GRAY AREAS, BAD, RIDICULOUS, and RI-GOD-DAMN-DICULOUS or WHAT THE FUCK categories ! As usual, I try to be as positive as possible, but there may be stuff that is bad, vulgar, and insulting to others. So if u are not prepared to know what kind of bad stuff I could write, bcos it may tarnish ur good impression of me (=p), then pls dont read.. cos I wan to remain a nice guy in your eyes, which I obviously am. But if u don't care or won't be affected, then let's go!!!  THIRTEEN years in the making By tradition, we Marists would have a yearly outing at Lionel's place. After the somewhat awkward boonzana last year, we decided to meet outside instead. I must say, it was a good choice. This year, some guys couldn't come, and Matt came late and didn't meet the two who left. But overall, we had a good time talking, catching up, discussing our depressed fren, and me complaining abt the weird life I have. After Matt came in evening, had Korean food at Illuma, me and leh shared the hotpot beef (very nice), and then off to eat Japanese ice cream at MOF!! Maybe its bcos I toned down, maybe I am more apathetic or maybe I just don't expect so much from them. But although there were no fireworks and rainbows and bunnies hopping around in strawberry fields, I still had a good time. So its all good! What an Xmas present!!!!!!! In the end we got 2 photoframes and 4 bookmarks!!!! And left with 16 tickets.. (not enough to get eraser which is the least costly at 18 tickets.. and the person say no discount.. =p) Basketball My hard work in basketball paid off as I met my brother and friends for a session. Sure, 3v3 is easier than 4v4 which was the case last time, but overall I got to play a bigger role, and show some stuff I hadn't been able to do. I know u wish that u saw me do many behind-the-pass, double spin move- no look passes through people's legs, but no.. I jus did normal stuff. But good motivation nonetheless. Haha I even hit 2 clutch jumpers at the end of the last game!!!! What's the mystery? Office activities on eve We had a great time in the office on eve! Early on, I gave people the gifts I got for them, and then got ready for the BF together and the games!!!! Very fun, we did spot the differences (which i won an extra present for), Taboo.. which I love but the opposing team just got all the luck (Joelle got the word "actor", and her husband is a former actor lor...), while we got words like vampire.. which Clarence described in a RA way... LOL We also played listing of categories, very fun, and the ANIMAL GAME!!! U know the one where we make animal gestures, and then u have to try to sabo ppl so they will get wrong?? U know the one u play at Orientation camps???? Ah yes!!!! And of cos, we got the official gift exchange, and Lydia got my carrot man bolster, while I got perfume from Shirley (Charlene) !!!! I bought shoes Had some nice time 'shopping' at Raffles City on Sunday.. of cos for guys there isn't much (which happens everywhere), but I got to look at nice stuff, and think of buying my own present for myself! Of cos my fav brand there still belongs to RiverIsland, which has the mix of hip and style and maturity for me! I was very very tempted to buy shirt, bag and jeans, all at affordable prices, but alas... I realized thy couldn't fit. = = At Topman I also saw something I really felt was cool.. thin denin sweater... but it costed $90+.... = = .... daylight robbery sia... And I finally settled on buying leather shoes for work... and there was a cool $40+ shoes on sales from RI, but again, CAN'T FIT... = = But finally, I got an $80+ shoes... not too bad, it will hurt my ankles for sure, but definitely it has a more pro look.. And thats the story of my own Xmas Present. =p Xmas eve at tampines My Xmas eve was spent.. with Miss Duan haha!!! We caught Princess and Frog, which will be underated, and had some nice hanging out. Sorry that I came late =( but we got to have a nice 2 people set meal, talking abt New Moon (she loving Jacob and me loving Alice), buying her Xmas present to her fren (nice biscuits which has a container that plays Vivaldi's 4 seasons), and yes, talking abt how good the movie was. We walked to her place back from Tampines central (super near = = lucky person), and talked some stuff.. (her dream guy is sooooo unrealistic) overall, nice time. =D  Working after office hrs continues.. Well, we finally got the depressed fren out and it wasn't pretty. He is super negative, he is depressed, and as with any person with problems, he cannot understand and accept that he, HIMSELF, is the be all and end all of the issues. Namely, we don't choose our problems, but we choose our solutions. U can't change the world, u can only change urself. But hey, at least we got him out of bed, we got him out of the house, and we got him to talk. Baby steps huh? THAT THING = = The thing that I had problems with in my last post? Well, of cos I am still looking at positive stuff, and trying to accept and move on... but still, SUPER SIAN. And if u haven't guessed it already, I got pangseh-ed by a girl. And in fact, its THE GIRL, whom I most want to know better... I really hope and trust that she didn't mean to do it, and that she wouldn't have if she could help it... but when I think of it, it still sucks that I was full of hope and glee 2 weeks ago when she agreed to meet on eve for countdown.. only for me to come crashing down 2 days later.. (picture the Roadrunner and wolf cartoon. The wolf is sitting in an aeroplane trying to catch Roadrunner, when he realises that some special part is missing, in Roadrunner's mouth.. and the next moment, the plane dismantles, and wolf comes crashing down.) And of cos, it gets worse as there's no replacement date, and she's not replying me 3 sms in a row le (of which I send jus to ask how she is and give well wishes), which has never happened before. Pls forgive my ventilation. FUCK.  Low Blow For Miss E, its ok for her to reject goin out with me, and we are still frens as I know she is a good person. But honestly, I cannot understand WHY she chooses to pop me an IM on Xmas day, JUST TO TELL ME TO STOP ASKING HER OUT. She couldn't do it on the day she last rejected? She has to wait 2 days later??? I mean, it was Xmas day for fuck's sake! Who says, "Merry Xmas! But btw, can u stop asking me out?" Totally ruined the mood at the moment, and what's more is I already forgot I even asked her!! The wonderful neighbors; the ones who shout at their dog, and the ones who want to build a wall between our 2 houses... and want us to pay half... well they also decided to show off their KTV skills that day!!!! As we all may know, home KTV is nothing like commercial KTV.. its abnormal to hear people trying to be the idols of their dreams, oblivious to the fact that they have neighbors.. but indeed, it happens. True, they weren't as bad as the time I heard someone sing WA MNG TI in Kovan HDB... but man, it wasn't pretty at all.. oh and it was also midnight!!!! At least WA MNG TI was sang in the daytime...  Darth Vader Music Why Vader music? Guess who's back?? B) Love of my life C) A former fren turned enemy reconciles with me (Hi Miss "Disturbed"!!!) D) THE UNCLE Obviously u know the answer. THE. UNCLE. IS. BACK. Where is the love? My knee jerk reaction was "If I am the guy, I will tell the girl to fuck off." And as of now, I still stand by this. Look, I wasn't suprised to hear it, but when I actually did know of something like this, I can't help but feel that, Singapore society is just not worth living in, if it produces people like that. SINCE WHEN, IS THE MEASURE OF LOVE BASED ON THE SIZE OF THE DIAMOND IN THE RING???? I'm not gonna be some preacher and tell people what values they should have, but let me tell u that, if even b4 marriage, the $$$$$$ and materialistic value of things is so important, THEN THESE ISSUES WILL NEVER END. Today it can be the ring, tomorrow it can be the hotel u hold the wedding, next week it can be the price of the vacation. Two years later? The cost of the Lampogini (wrong spelling)? Five years later? The type of private kindergarden your kid goes to? Ten years later? Upgrading your 4 room flat to a $2mil condo??? If $$$$ and materialism is the yardstick for the measurement of happiness, then I can tell u it will never end. If a guy is willing to give in, and dig into his DBS account just to buy a ring that is 4 times his monthly salary, what should he do in the future with all the predicted expenses? Ya that's right, GE money and Citi Easycredit will come knocking.. and we all know what will happen. If ppl always think that materialism = happiness, then u will always be living beyond your means, bcos they will always be something more beautiful, more slick, more upmarket, more prestigous out there. And to borrow the analogy from Fight Club movie, u will be working in jobs u hate, just to buy shit that u don't need! What's the happiness in that, when u won't be satisfied? And even if technically people can afford such things, does it means we have to spend the $$$$??? If I really care abt the marriage and family, $$$ to me, should be spent on safeguarding the future of the family. The child's education, the retirement plans, how to support parents etc, these are all more important, AND SHOW MORE SINCERITY FOR YOUR LOVE FOR A WOMAN, than the size of the ring... Leave when u have the chance Well, NS has once again proven that, it is something not worth spending time on Fact: On a sat, we went back for mandated "IPPT cum Cohesion". Fact: At Bedok camp, a huge percentage of people had to wake up before 6, so as to reach at 7. A good number live in the west. (I, who lives in Central SG, woke up at 5.30. And, Army policy says that u NEED SEVEN HOURS OF REST before physical activity, which we obviously did not have.) Fact: Based on the time we had to reach, it is not a far stretch to say that a sizeable no of people took private transport or even taxi. Keep in mind still, that a good percentage live in the west. My own cab driver charged more than $10. Fact: We were released no later than 1130 am, despite the fact that a lot of people had nothing to do after 10am, and despite the fact that the official duration for this event is 1100 am! Fact: By waking up so early, a good number of ppl didn't have breakfast. And despite of this, they participated in strenous physical activity. And despite of all this, we were kept till 1130am, THE OFFICIAL TIME FOR START OF LUNCH IN ARMY, and yes, we didn't get lunch too. Fact: $12.34 is the amount of NS pay we received.I repeat, $12.34 is the amount of NS pay we received. What happens if someone, becos of IPPT could not do OT the previous day? What if his boss got pissed???? Don't even talk abt retrenchment, but there are 100000 ways that ppl can make ur life hell at work. What happens to those people with wives and small children? Or aged parents? SATURDAY folks... do I need to explain what we lose out on? What happens if someone, bcos of not getting 7 hours of sleep, ran the 2.4 km run and collapsed??????? WHAT IF, something happened to anyone, who bcos of the physical strain (NO 7 HOURS OF SLEEP REMEMBER), misjudged the road conditions and got into an accident, bcos he was rushing to bring his mom to the clinic, or to discuss his wedding plans? Does the Army understand how much some of us sacrifice to come back for NS at this time and this day??? We are not 18 anymore. We are at least mid 20s, and we have careers, we have family, we have responsibilites and committments, and we have our own lives. And I am not joking. There are definitely a number of people who had to change family plans, make alternative work arrangements just bcos of this thing. There are definitely people who had to rush off to fetch their kids or to visit someone in hospital. There are definitely people who had to still go and work on a Saturday.And for those of us who bothered coming back, this is the appreciation we get??? $12.34????????????????????? Look, we are not asking for $100.00, or even to make a profit from NS. But the fact that they actually pay us $12.34, which isn't even enough to cover the transport (cos we have to rush from another part of SG in the morning) and food (cos we didn't eat since morning) for most of us, I really wonder, how can anyone justify that the contributions of NS men are appreciated?? And they wonder why more and more people choose to downgrade????? THE END!! Happy new year!!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009Title: Still Standing I always feel, that if you wanna spew some cheques from your mouth, you gotta make sure when someone cashes it in, your ass is ready to give. Meaning, if u wanna say something, u make sure u do what you claim. Don't promise people, don't talk big, don't agree to stuff, if you cannot back up what you say in the end. Well, minutes after spending 2 hours trying to counsel and advise my depressed friend, my own words were (and still are) put to the test. BE POSITIVE Sometimes life just gives you disappointments, brings u on emotional rollercoasters, and then send your ass crashing down to earth. Its times like this, dark hours, that you are really tested. I don't wan to talk in detail abt the issue, but its kinda big bcos its been months of waiting, and after expectations are being fulfilled 3 times at least, up and down, up and down, the outcome is still unfavorable. This matter per se.. is SUPER SIAN. Its the kind of thing that just makes u wanna scream, and throw some stuff and kick anything in sight. But that's the point. As what I had told my fren, I need to apply it to myself, bcos thats the way things work. I need to stay strong, be positive, hope, and be happy. A lot of things are out of our control. They are extraneous variables. At the end of the day, people make decisions, and what u can do, is to adapt. U can't change people most of the time, but what u can change, is your thinking and outlook. 1. Be positive about your situation. Instead of looking at what failed, and what didn't happen, look at what did happen. Think of the good things within this outcome that show signs of hope for the future. And if there isn't, what happened in the process, that wasn't bad??? 2. What can u learn about this? There is always something u can take away. Is it something wrong u did? U said? U thought? What can u learn abt yourself and abt the situation that u can apply in future or similar situations? 3. Look beyond yourself. U think you have a problem? There is always someone worst than u! We tend to be like this... we get into some shit, and we are like in a deep well. Its dark, there is no space, and u cannot see the exit in sight. But somewhere out there, there is someone who is suffering more than u! If u are willing to look out, and see the broader surroundings, u will know that things are not as bad as u think. And last, as I told my friend... U are still here. I got this idea to say this from the quote from "the wrestler" "You know, if you live hard and play hard and you burn the candle at both ends, you pay the price for it. You know, in this life you can lose everything you love, everything that loves you. Now... I don't hear as good as I used to and I forget stuff and I ain't as pretty as I used to be but god-damn it, I'm still standing here and I'm The Ram!" We should try to have this spirit. We are going thru the shit, but isn't it what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger?? Instead of thinking, "I am in shit", think "In spite of being in shit, I AM STILL HERE." Isn't that right? Every difficulty we go thru, is preparing us, making us more adaptable, developing us, becos the road ahead will be full of shit! Isn't it something positive? That despite all the shit, that I am still able to try to be positive and write this to encourage u? Doesn't it mean that I weathered this storm to an extent, and doesn't it mean that I did something that some people couldn't do? In conclusion, when problems happen, people love to externalize it. Its human tendancies, but its also not the right way. We wish that people would change, or things would change, or what not, but more often than not, the shit just happens. Even if they change, something else is going to happen, and we will bitch and whine again. And if this also changes, some other problem is gonna happen again. When will it end? We gotta realise that the only thing we can 100% change, is ourselves. A lot of times, things are similar to what they always are, but what has changed is the way we look at stuff. Let this post be a reminder to myself, to always reach within, to find the courage, wisdom and determination, to meet life's challenges!!! Sunday, December 20, 2009Title: Bizarro World Pt 2 The beast is unleashed For work related stuff, the most fierce and bizarro scolding I received, comes from Mr P, ops director of a very big ambulance company in Singapore. No 1 point is the intensity and magnitude of the event. Given the reputation and position this person holds, u will never expect to be subjected to vulgarities from him. U won't expect that his voice sends Earthquake like tremors down your spine, and that his voice looms in the background of your dreams. U will not expect to be unreasonably shouted at for 30 minutes, with no way to defend nor explain yourself. Its like the "reason" and "logic" and "common sense" buttons were deactivated, and "rage", "anger" and "I want to scream at you" were turned on to ECW extreme! Who let the dogs out??? WOO WOO WOO!!!! No 2 point is the immense insignificant and illogical "reason" for the scolding. To put matters in perspective, we are supposed to be his prospective clients. However, he is scolding because no one picked up his call, which he called to inform that he cannot come. And he is mad not just becos no one picked up his call, but becos he knows that we purposely do not want to do business with him. I say again, we are his prospective clients, whom, if successful to be his clients, are the people PAYING $$$ TO HIM. And he is scolding the people that might be paying $$$ to him, just bcos no one picked up the call. Well, the person who was not able to answer the call, bcos he was busy out of the office, was scolded by this man, who is the one we might be paying $$$ to! Actually, there is also a No 3 point, which is the fun trivia facts. Do u know that he also scolded the TELEPHONE OPERATOR (because its the "phone system's fault"), and all the way up to her boss? Do u know that he threatened to report to the Nursing Director (I am in no way under her BTW) ? Do u know that he threatened to report my boss to the COMMISSION OF CHARITIES?? Ridiculous? Preposterous? Outrageous? Out of this world? Mr P: " I want a full page, written black and white explanation from your CEO, if not I am going to report you to the Commission of Charities!!!!!!" (The moment I am typing this, I actually heard his name again! He is going to meet with my boss! Is this fate or what?) Venture where no one has gone before U may also remember me talking about this, and let me say that, there is none on the list of bizarro things that I am 100% proud of, except this: HELPING TO INTRO MY TWO FRENS If u do not remember me talking about this, I will explain again exactly WHY this makes me a great man. This is no self deluded explanation, but its reasoning is firmly rooted in science. Layman speaking, Men, as the male species of humans, are, like most male species. We want to be dominant over what we own, territory, food, and our kin. Well, for humans it is more complex. Other than instincts and behavior that we attained from evolution, there are also psychological, mental, social, practical reasons for WANTING WOMEN. Every man wants women. And every man who does not have one, will want her more; especially if he knows there is a chance to get what he wants. If u are a guy, answer this question: if u are single for very long, and there is a girl that you have the chance to go after, will u intro to another guy fren who doesn't even know this person? If u can go after this person, why would u give another person the chance instead, and totally leave the picture???? Oh one more thing, SHE IS A CHIO BU. 1) Becos u are crazy 2) Becos u have something to gain 3) Becos u believe in sacrificing for other's welfare Well, I can tell u that reason 1 and 2 are not the answer. Yes I know, I am that great. Shuming:" Huh, why u go and intro her to another guy? She not bad what!! U crazy ah???" So what do u do again? U know, things are always not as bad as we make it sound. For people who always say "no $", ask them to look at kids in Tibet with no home. For people who always say "no time", ask them to look at a single mom with 3 jobs and 4 kids at the pulau ubin home. For people who always say "this is not what i signed up for"...... ask them to look at ME. I did a ton of shit that is unrelated to my work; insurance advisor, debt collector, telephone caller, financial planner, firefighter, dispute mediator, building advisor, feedback collector, part time poster boy, and was even the singer of our company's own original song. But none of these roles make me shake my head as much as GARDENER. U see, someone one day had a grand idea of having a garden run by patients. Awesome idea, but in fact, the interest wasn't there. But bcos of lots of factors, the project went on anyway. And when H1N1 came, no patients were allowed into the area. And guess WHO ended up being the gardener??? I mean, after all, I was supposed to oversee the project, and if I don't maintain while waiting for the H1N1 to lift, who is going to do it??? Well, I can tell u that u cannot imagine the countless times I was watering plants and spending my weekends plucking weeds. And asking myself 'Why'? Snr Director: "$1000 over dollars went wasted.." (What i heard she said, but btw it isn't true. Thankfully very little $ was spent) Home Visit... to a friend There are times when a person in a human service profession performs tasks from that profession to people who are in a personal relationship to him. Such instances, when happened, really do make me feel.. "Woah, am I really gonna do this?" Think what is going thru a surgeon's mind if he has to operate on a friend, or an undertaker's feeling if he is running a service for his relative. What if u are a paramedic, and u are in the ambulance now next to someone u know??? And what if u are social worker, doing a non work related home visit to a depressed friend??? I mean u may think, its just like visiting someone. But no, it isn't. U are visiting someone with a problem, and when u are there, people talk to u as if u are here to solve their problems. U ask questions on what's going on, u think of ways, u try to get the family to work out a plan... doesn't this all seem very deja vu???? Aunt: "He just stays in the bed and doesn't come out. I really don't know what to do, you all are his friends, can u think of what to do?" The Uncle And now, is the time to play the Shanghai Tan music, and welcome the main event, the jaw dropping, absolutely stunning conclusion to this article. The winning weird event that has happened this year, is THE UNCLE. Every single person has given me the "What the fuck is wrong" look when they know abt this. Of cos they do, there is nothing normal at all. I was getting calls from a prostitute, its nothing. U throw a rock in Geylang and the person is someone getting calls from them. But u can throw 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 00000000000000000000000000000000000000000 rocks to all the countries in the world, and how many men can u find that are getting harrassed by a 50 year old uncle??????? 30? 10? 5? U see, for females, thy get chased by undesirable guys at least once in their live right? But as bad as the guys are, there is a reason for this happening. There is a justifiable reason for the girl to accept that she is being chased, no matter how ugly or shitty the guy is. But for an uncle to keep calling me? For him to want to get to know me better????? There is absolutely no reason I see that I would want to get into this!!!!!! WHAT COULD I POSSIBLY WANT OR NEED FROM A 50 YEAR OLD UNCLE???????? I'm not saying he is a bad guy, or that I don't want to be friends. I really tried at one time, but when there is a limit to how much we can withstand.. and I really have to stop it at the moment already. Will it continue? I don't know. Uncle: "Don't be scared.. I just want to be your friend. I am not trying to disrupt your life." Conclusion: I had a really weird year!!!!! Do u agree????? Thursday, December 17, 2009Title: Bizarro World pt 1 The world, as we realise with each passing year, gets weirder and weirder. In 2008, no one would have guessed that MJ would pass away, or that Transformers 2 would suck, or that we would NOT SEE Kobe Bryant v Lebron James in NBA finals 2009, or that 2012 shows us how close we may really be to the apocalypse (At the rate the climate talks go.. 2012 may well be the end of the world) Similarly, as I look back, I realise 1 word can sum up 2009 for me. I wish to say it is CASH or ENLIGHTENMENT or TRUE-LOVE (got hi-fen means 1 word ok.. =p) but it is instead... "HUH??" Some stuff is not so bizarre, cos they happen to others too (though I would never think it would happen to me) but some stuff is really.... makes me think... WHY????? Anyway, lets look at them, shall we??? Part 1 !!!!! China Girl Zhiyang: "Is something wrong? Why u care so much abt this girl?" She needed $$$. Just as simple as that. And who knew that a simple phone call enquiry from a TCT foundation would cause a big mountain of stress to me!!!! U know what happened??? TCT asked what help she is getting from my organisation. Sounds simple? Well, later, the patient claimed that TCT said they won't help her with $$$, BECAUSE MY ORGANISATION CLAIMED TO BE HELPING HER A LOT. And then she said because of this, she had no $$$ to pay for some medical services, and she wanted compensation!!!!!! And of cos TCT denied everything, and just said "Tell her she misunderstood." (As if the person will believe) THE FUCK??????????????????????????????? I felt as if I was being blackmailed. My life was just so miserable for about 1 week u know???? Because of something I said, which was intepreted out of context, the person is trying to get $$$ from my organisation!!!!! I really felt that there was a black hole I was falling into, and I could never get out!!! I even contemplated giving my own $$$ to this person, just to shut her up! FYI, it was $1000+ !!!! Thankfully, she passed away soon after. And u can say I am evil, but I had never been so glad that someone had died. Really. Patient: "U say till ur organisation help me so much. Now I need $$$ for my colostomy bags how? I sent the receipt to u on Monday, u go and settle with TCT foundation." Dungeons and Dragons presents: TOWER OF DOOM To borrow the title of the legendary arcade game, I finally found where the TOWER OF DOOM is. It is at ORCHARD TOWERS. U see, one time, in an attempt to "see more of the world", and also bcos I was emotionally and socially bankrupt, I decided to go along with my fren to "have a fun time". U know, get some booze, size up some chicks, get high... u know "the adult stuff".... Let me continue by explaining the concept of exchange. Exchange happens almost everywhere to everyone. No matter what u are doing, u as a human are trying to fulfil a need or a want, and u are doing something in exchange for it. For example, I am giving up my time and energy for my work, because it rewards me with $$$, gratification, and social fulfillment. In Orchard Towers, such a concept doesn't exist. In this strange world, u are expected to give up your $$$, in the form of $50 notes, in "exchange" for "drinking" 5ml of "liquor". U are expected to do this, in "exchange" for being able to "interact" with the escorts there. If there was ever a more ridiculous way of pissing off your $$$, please tell me. Paying $$$$ to be able to talk to a pseudo-prostitute? To TALK, u need to pay $$$?? And not like talk in a fun way, like with people u enjoy being with, but "talk" about stuff like "where u from? what u doing, how long u in Singapore?" Exactly what fun is there in talking about this??????????? I CAN GO OUT THERE AND TALK TO ANYONE ON THE ROAD RIGHT HERE AND NOW, AND IT IS FREE. Oh, and one more time, as recent as few days ago, this "prostitute" is still contacting me, asking me to call her. WOW. "Nicky": "U don't like me never mind, but why u don't call me? I Nicky, u meet me in Top One. Call me, I got something to tell u."Conclusion: Will pt 2 reveal more weird stuff?????? Tune in!!!! Wednesday, December 16, 2009Title: Ventilation At 5 plus today, uncle called again. True, I was on MC so technically it should be ok to call me since I was not working, but to remind u, the situation is that this is the guy who had once called me NINE TIMES IN SIX DAYS, and currently, he has been calling me FIVE DAYS IN A ROW. To cut the story short, I told him in a not nice way, to stop calling me. I am absolutely not proud of what I had done, yet it does seem like a necessary evil. Hence my blogging to ventilate some feelings. I mus say that, at one time, I really did want to continue to go out with him, and I did promise (I think) to bring him to the movies if Edmond was available (Edmond got a rush of cold feet though), and I also did tell him that we could meet sometimes since HWA is near my workplace. I really said all that, and all people should honor their word. But then, it started that he began to call more frequently. And to the point that it was almost consecutive days in a row, and after a while, I totally stopped picking up. And guess what, the calls came everyday and more than once a day at a time (9 times in 6 days). When I finally did return, apparently he just wanted to ask if I was free to help in some event, but he called everyday since I never picked up. Benefit of the doubt? Or is it that he calls to know that I am there, that I will pick up, and so that he can hear my voice???? Anyway, whats done is done. Like I said, I am not proud of what I did, but this is what you would have done in my position. In fact, I must say that, I already was very nice to him already when so many others had avoided him or just gave lip service. And I mean, yes he is pitiful, but that shouldn't be the reason I be friends with him. If so, then the friendship has no meaning cos I would just be taking pity on him. I'm giving him the respect of a normal person, and thats why I wan to base my friendship on what I feel abt him. But the thing is, how to feel positive abt him when I am being "harrassed"??? Is rejecting someone like this a crime?? So many ppl, didn't give me a fair chance to get to know them better, but if they have a choice over who they want to be friends with, then so should I. Yes I may not be 100% fair to him, but were people fair to me too? Life is not fair what. But then again, I still do not feel good at all. I think I had the right decision, but maybe I could have been more tactful? Did I hurt him more when I finally replied to his calls, only to tell him I won't help him ask for Edmond's birthday ( Tat is honestly a stupid idea from him, ppl already avoid u, u still wan to knw their birthday for what? ) , and that can he pls stop calling me cos it is irritating me and that I do not like it at all, no matter who is calling? But given the emotional state I was in, could I be blamed? Who wouldn't get phobia in such situations??? Am I wrong?? Sunday, December 6, 2009Title: Meijia !!! Anyway, let's talk abt Meijia now! So what has Meijia been up to after the release of her fifth album late last year??  No more rules No more rules is a first time ever compilation of all her mvs and songs that were Tie-up songs for comercials of Kanebo Kate Cosmetics! Basically its nothing much new, a collector's album if u will, but it was released limited edition in Japan, so that makes it valuable !!! Also, a new song was added, Game! And here it is !! Quite a funky song ^ ^. I like the feeling that its like telling a story among all the cool sound effects!!!! Overall a fun song, with a tinge of sexiness and excitement added into it !!!! Can u feel the suspense and electricty in the air? I don't think Meijia had ever had such a song, and that's great. 中島美嘉 GAME PV  Overload For a while I tot Meijia was going into virtual reality themes for her songs, as Overload made its debut as her 28th single in May. For the first few times, it felt really weird, with the techno stuff mixed with classical violin and synthesizer, but after time, I must say, this song grew on me. Its definitely her best song in 2009. Candy Girl Diversity is the name of the game here. If you for one moment think Meijia is a one trick pony, you can't be more wrong and Candy Girl will tell you why. Its a fun song, very quirky and sexy, and I do like the circus atmosphere it brings. U may need more time to get used to it too. I do, however, NOT DIG her haircut at all... the Overload look was great, why change?? Mika Nakashima : Candy Girl Nagareboshi After around 1 year, Meijia released another ballad again, and quite possibly the poster song of her next album was born. Its a good ballad, nothing really bad, but at the same time, it just gave me the same feel as her previous ballad Orion. And apparently, many other thought so. The overuse of star-themed titles is also getting a bit old (Stars, Mienai Hoshi, Orion, and now Nagareboshi), but the cover is very elegant, the performance is respectable, so all's well.  Always The first single of 2010 will be titled Always, and be the theme song for an upcoming movie, Sayonara Itsuka. Honestly, this is how u do a Meijia Ballad!!!!! After listening, I had doubts on whether Nagareboshi would headline Album #6 after all! Always brings with it a very Big Time feel, like something u will hear in Encores of her future concerts. It may be a bit too emo, but it features Meijia's strengths very well. AND, its got the commercial feel (Equals $$$$$$$$) !!!! Good!!! Check out the link, PV not out yet! http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/QeL8szTsaYo Conclusion Meijia appears to be getting on to a good start in her next album with quality singles. Commercially, they may not be up to the taste of the masses, but she's Meijia after all!!! I hope this high standard of songs continues, and that album #6 will turn out to be something awesome!!!!! Have a happy 2010 Meijia!!!!! Tuesday, December 1, 2009 Title: Calling the wrong name What is situations where calling the wrong name means bad shit?? Sometimes its ok, like Chandler in friends who got to eat free donuts by being called Toby by someone; but more often than not, u don't call people wrongly. In NS when u just joined u dont call your Officer by another name. When u have multiple kids u don't call them wrongly.. hell in bed even, u don't shout Linda when your gf is called Cindy rite??? If u read previous posts, u will know that the infamous terror of the elevators.. the sounds from hell.. more deadly than the Sirens in Greek mythology.. the song known as "the 5cs song"; is recorded by me and my colleagues. It terrorizes our souls and chills our minds daily when we step in the lift. It makes u wish u were not born. It just sucks. Well, anyway, CEO in her address finally mentioned the song, and said something like "We now have the 5cs song, and the voice u hear everyday is Job's voice". Thats a nice acknowledgement, and everything is fine.. except for 1 thing: JOB DID NOT TAKE PART IN THIS RECORDING. I want to say I'm disappointed, but I guess this reaction left me long ago. Its just another example in a long line of shit we experience from our top management. Me and my colleagues "volunteered" to help in the recording and for a start, I was already not happy. It was the peak of the peak time in my dept, and even though its loserific saying u want to do your work.. it sure beats spending valuable time recording a song rite? And we spent THREE HOURS PLUS recording. I almost wanted to die. Really. I don't want to say we deserve any recognition for this thing. In fact we should apologize for depressing everyone every morning with that crappy song. But no matter how shitty it sounds, its something we all did for THREE HOURS PLUS. We didn't choose to be there, but we did our best, and if ppl want to fault us, they should ask better singers next time ! Now as I say, we don't need nor want credit. But at the end of the day, at the very least the person who invented this song, and this equally brilliant idea to make ppl learn to sing it, should at least know who the hell participated in the recording right?? Even if u don't know, u don't have to say someone else's name right??? I know 90% of the people dunno who sang it too (which isn't a bad thing), but is it wrong to think that at least the most impt person in the company should know?? Not for us to get credit, not for us to have 5 seconds of fame.. but at least for us to know that the eternity we spent, standing without rest and risking our short term health, was at least worth it somewhat??? I mean, there should be value and meaning in what we do.. and I know there is no value to me, I wasted my time. There is oso not value to the other colleagues cos everyone hates the song. But if even the CEO doesn't value it enough to bother to remember who sang it, then WHY, WHY did I have to spend THREE HOURS of my life doing something I hate???? = = |
